You Did It Again

Once again, you made me feel that emptiness after you hang up.I hate you for making me love you.I hate you for being constantly in my mind.I hate you for making me gooey over you.I hate you because I could never learn to forget you.

I wish you know how much I love you.I wish you do love me,too............

Did You Ever Love Me?

     I have asked you this a million times already but you never answered it directly. You said you are a man of few words. A man who doesn't want to be bugged saying it. You'd rather say it at times you wanted to. How many times have I heard you say it though?A few times. I can't blame you.That is what you are and this is what I am.

   I am thinking of the chances I took just to let you know how much I love you, to prove to you that I don't just stop at words,that I can prove everything I said were all true.The other day, it just dawned on me that you don't actually love me. You love having me around, having a crazy girl like me around that is why you are so blunt every time I ask you if you have feelings for me. Well, probably this is where "my" love story ends. It ends with a loud bang telling me to stop having illusions of you and me along the way.

    I am now answering the question I posed for you. Yes, you never did love me. You were only intrigued by my personality, my life and my lunacy. So, hard as it is, I need to say goodbye now.

    Please take care. Don't forget your vitamins. In case you run out of  supplements, don't hesitate to text me, I will send right away. In case you run out of load, please let me know.

   Even you don't love me, I will still be here........don't worry, I wont be calling or messaging you anymore...I won't change my number though in case you will need me one day.

To The Only Man I Truly Love

        I guess you will call me a fool for confessing to the whole world that I love you and I always will though I won't be bothering you anymore.I am done doing things to make you notice me.I am done thinking of you every single minute of the day, wondering what could have happened to you.It's enough.I have done everything........except be free to be with you.