Days..weeks...months..years..I have stopped counting.I have stopped keeping track of time.I thought missing you will be put to an end but I was dead wrong.

I have tried poisoning my thoughts by telling myself you are taking me for a ride, that you only wanted me to entertain you when boredom sets in, that you are making me an experiment and that I don't really matter to you.Yet every time I close my eyes, I feel that crazy sensation and unknowingly I am head over heels in love with you again.

When will this end?When will I ever gonna let go?When will I stop waiting?

It is even crazier and more painful now because at uncertain time I could feel you,I could hear your voice,I could smell you and I could see you smile in my head that I wish I could pluck you out and hug you tight.

This has to end.....but how..?